Having a tumblr has been a really interesting thing for me. It was another place where I could be invisible -where no one would know who I really was, and where I could portray myself as whoever I wanted to be.
In real life, I use faucets just like this, to show people only what I want them to know. To me, it’s just another tool I use to disconnect from everything people think they know about me and reboot as any anyone I want to be. And when you’re good at it like I am, it feels good. And it teaches you how to never let one person or group of people truly know who you are. But have you ever been alone and realized: you have no idea who the fuck you are? That’s cute. I do it multiple times a day. I constantly wonder who I would be today had I not deviated so far from people.
Like everything in my life, the greatest things in it always become the most destructive. And isolation, the most positive and powerful sanctuary I’d ever felt, became the most damaging escape I’ve ever experienced -holding me back from life, people, and relationships. But a lot of things have changed since then. In the past two months, I’ve experienced some of the most incredible moments and feelings of my life. In the process, grasping an understanding of myself I’ve never harnessed before. And it feels so good to finally confront the things that have been holding me back for so long. Honestly, I’m just tired of people not knowing jack shit about me. After three years, it’s gotten fucking annoying. I just want to be myself.
So, the first thing you need to know about me is: I like to write and I like to think.
And I want to begin by being more open about myself. So, I’m gonna start writing my thoughts and ideas on here so people can know me better. Oh, but wait! You subscribe to photography-only blogs? Well fuck you, this is the internet and I can do whatever I want.